Every now and then I get the labour feeling. That uneasiness you feel inside when your ideas just want to be born, to become alive. But I watch them die, because for some reason I can’t push. I miscarry them and move on. But they keep coming. And I keep losing them.
on a side note, all this pregnancy talk has got me thinking maybe someone I know is pregnant. Tchai!
I woke up today with that feeling again. Of wanting to do something, to create something, to solve a problem in this crazy world of ours. I woke up this morning with the energy and excitement of using my knowledge to create something, something that will live long after I am gone.
Most of us feel this way all the time and there is nothing we do about it. We watch our dreams die because we dont know where to start and it sucks! Usually I would blame myself, but not today. Today I blame our school system.
Reason with me here, have you noticed how all the learning from primary school to secondary school and even college revolves around passing exams? We go through every module, subject and course with the sole purpose of getting that paper, that prized degree that we neatly put away protecting it from fire and water hazards. The emphasis was never on teaching us to apply the knowledge we learn. It was always on testing who remembers the most. Unfortunately we learnt that game so well and we forgot why we were playing in the first place. We were never taught how to push the ideas we have into life and now we keep having miscarriages.
But there is no use blaming the system. These are my babies, these are your babies. Stop losing them.
Teach yourself to push.